Unfair ( Eridan x Reader )

"Alright, here you go, Er." You sat down the cup of freshly made tea in front of his sitting form, blowing on it slightly. He rolled his eyes and glanced back at his cup, blowing on it until it cooled. He took a sip,


"This is almost as bad as I thought it wwould be."


"Is that that Eridian for 'thank you'?" He scoffed, making you chuckle. He mumbled some choice words under his breath,  before taking a few sips of his tea.


You chuckled and continued, "Anyway, what's up with you? Are you sick?...Quadrent problems?"


"No I'm not sick, landdwweller. And yes, it's quadrant problems."


"What happened?"


"Fef happened." He sighed, crossing his arms over his chest.  


"....You tried to ask her to pail again, didn't you?"


"Yes.."


"She rejected you again, didn't she?"


"Wwhale, a' course she did, I wwouldn't be so fuckin' annoyed right noww if she'd said yes." You sighed, rubbing your temples with your small fingers. He always did this, trying to 'wwoo' Fef into pailing, and then crying to you when she rejected him.


"Why the fuck do you even try anymore? You could have someone else by now, but you still try to be with her. She doesn't love you Eridan. Fucking accept that already." You turned to him and glared, but then quickly softened your gaze. 'Maybe I was a bit too harsh...' You thought and looked away, crossing your arms.


Sniff!


'Shit.' You glanced over to see Eridan with glazed eyes, staring back at you. You frown in sadness, walk around the table, and rub his back. He continued to sniffle, but never had any tears come out of his eyes. 'I guess he doesn't want to cry in front of me...That's adorable..' You blushed slightly,


"I'm sorry, but I'm not lying, and you know it. And I'm also not saying no one loves you. Cronus loves you, Dualscar loves you, they just have serious trouble expressing it." You paused, chuckling slightly. "I love you, your like my brother." You smile at him, but seeing him almost get more depressed.


"I'm going to my respiteblock." He mumbled, getting up and walking to his room. You groaned and sat down and thought for a while. 'Of course I love him as more than a brother, but I could never tell him....Even if I did tell him, he'd most certainly reject me. I mean, just look at me! My personality isn't much better either.' You sighed, 'Man, I am a fucking mess...'


Your eyes teared up slightly, getting up to get a soda from the fridge. 'I'm lucky he even talks to me, him being a highblood and all. I should just let the crush die over time, it's better than ruining my morailigience.' You stood up, taking a sip from your drink and stomping to your room. You slammed the door behind you and went straight to your laptop.  


You saw that you had a few people trying to pester on Pesterchum, but ignored them and went to some fanfiction websites instead, which was nothing new. You typed away for a while, mostly checking stats on your stories, and responding to favorites and follows.


It was just you and Eridan that lived at his hive, so you only had to worry about him. You finished responding to everything, and got up to stretch. You opened your door as quietly as you could, peeking out for a second, before tip-toeing to his door. He was sprawled all over floor, drool dripping down his chin. You chuckled at the sight, wiping the drool off. He groaned loudly, just before you moved his sleeping form up the ladder of his recuperacoon.


You carefully slid him into the green soper slime, and then went back down the ladder. You went back to your room, and made sure to close and lock the door behind you. You leaned your back against the door, and slowly slid down it. Your eyes stung with tears, so you pulled off your thick glasses, and finally let them out.


You didn't try and hide your face in your hands, you didn't wipe them away, you just let them fall. You cried as loud as you wanted to, considering Eridan was asleep and in his recuperacoon. There was no way he could hear you.


"Why can't I-" You hiccup, "be like her?" You question to no one. You stood and made your way to the closet, sobs escaping your mouth as you did.  You opened it up and pulled out your little black box that contained the one thing that helped you with the pain; your razor.


You hovered it over your wrist, "This is for not being worth anything!" You cried out, sliding it across your frail wrist. Blood immediately poured from the wound, but that didn't stop your from making a good 5 or 6 more cuts under the first.


"And this one for being so ugly, and this for being so fucking stupid, and for being unlovable! This is for letting my self hatred take over my life!" And the list went on.


After you were done, you ended up with around 14 new scares, and put your razor back in the box. You hid the box under your bed and used some bandages from your dresser to wrap up your fresh wounds.


Then your proceed to flop onto your bed, and quickly drift to sleep.


"[Name]! Wwill you fuckin' get up already?" What the hell? Your eyes snap open,


"The fuck?" You mumble, rubbing your eye lids, before feeling on the nightstand for your glasses. You finally find them and quickly push them on your face. "Why are you fuckin' waking me up, asshole?" Your odviously not much of a morning person.


"I wwant to knoww wwhy you wwere cryin' last night." Your eyes widened, "And I also wwant to knoww wwhy your wwrists," He paused and grabbed your wrist, making you wince, before pulling back the sleeve that had covered the bandages. "Look like this."


"It's nothing, silly. I'm fine!" You smiled the best you could, but you already knew he wasn't buying it. You sighed,


"Fine, you want to know why I cut myself? Sure, I'll tell ya! I cut myself because I am weak, I cut myself because I'm fat, I cut myself because I'm ugly. I cut because I'm not good enough, I cut because I'm a coward." You scream, pointing to your bandages.


"I cut myself because I absolutely hate myself." Eridan's eyes widened even wider, and he took in some more air.


"I had no idea you.." He trailed off, and them suddenly pulled you into his chest. "Listen to me for a second [Name]. You are the best thing that wwas evver created, and you are the best thing that has evver happened to me. You might hate me after I tell you this, but I'm extremely flushed for you, [Name]."



Now it was your turn to gasp, "It's alright if you don't feel-"



"Eridan."


"The same wway, I mean, I'm not the greatest-"


"Eridan."


"Person for you. I personally think you deservve someone better, but don't get me wwrong, I would lovve to claim you as mine-" You got on your tippy toes and captured his lips in yours. Your arms automatically wrapped around his long neck, as his went around your waist. Sadly, you needed air soon after the kiss started, so you were forced to pull away.


"I love you too, Eri." You smiled at him, panting slightly. He had a large smirk planted on his face, and seemed to be breathing perfectly normal.


"How the fuck are you not out of breath?" His smirk widened, as he pointed to the side of his neck. Oh right....gills... You frowned and blushed darkly,


"No fair."