Too Late( Sollux x Reader ) Oneshot

(I don't ever ask you where you've been,)


"Hey babe." You blinked out of your thoughts, and looked up to see your boyfriend standing over you. You quickly plaster on the best smile you can muster, and turned to fully face him.

"Hey Sollux, when'd you get h-" You were cut off my soft lips being placed on yours. Oh, so this is why he decided to come home.. You lean into the kiss, though your mind disagrees with doing so.

You taste something on his tongue, it tastes like strawberries. Hm, that's strange....

Oh, it must be....

Her..

(And I don't feel the need to know who you're with.)

It must have been the other one. Yes, you knew what he had been doing with her. But even so, you couldn't bring it to yourself to separate from him.

You pulled away, and grinned at him once again. He smiled back you, mischief in his miss match eyes. But you has different things on your mind..

Your head felt like it was spinning.

Was he really just with her? I bet he was.... Why does he even continue to lie to me if he knows that I have already found out?

What does he want from me?

Why won't he just break my heart already?

(I can't even think straight, but I can tell, that you were just with her.)

Why must he always lie? It would be such easier if he'd just leave already.....


You stared into his eyes, and snapped from your thoughts when your waist was grabbed, and you were pulled back into the kiss.

Oh yes, he was definitely with her again.

(And I'll still be a fool,)


Your eyes stayed open as he kissed you, but you did slide your arms around his neck. Your eyes suddenly snapped shut, and you pushed back into the kiss with an equal amount of force.

(I'm a fool for you..)


You pulled away once again, and you felt him move down to kiss your neck. You moaned out loudly when you felt his forked tongue brush over your bare skin, and shivered.

"I love you.."

(Just a little bit of your heart, just a little bit of your heart,)


He pulled away from your neck, and straightened his shirt. "Yeah, about that.." He looked at you, clearly irritated.


You felt your eyes sting, but you manage to keep them in. "I know, I know.." You mumble, and step a little closer. "Please just......finish what we've started...."


(Just a little bit of your heart is all I want.)


You wished that he'd just stay with you for more than your body.


But sadly, that just wasn't how it worked.


(Just a little bit of your heart, just a little bit of your heart,)


You moaned quietly, as he nipped at your collar bone, wrapping your arms around his long neck. He pulled away from your neck, and smirked down at you.


(Just a little bit is all I'm asking for.)


....


(I don't ever tell you how I really feel,)


You smiled happily, running your brush through your slightly knotted hair, making a few drips of cold water fall onto your back.


Sollux had asked you to dinner tonight, and you couldn't be more excited.

He never asked you out, so maybe this means that he would break it off with that other girl.

But, you knew the idea was far fetched.

You could tell him that you loved him until your face turned blue, but you could never express how you feel about him, and it drives you insane.

(Cause I can't find the words to say what I mean,)


You wish there was just some way he could just read your mind, and realize how you really felt about him.

But would he even care about how you feel about him?

(And nothing's ever easy, that's what they say,)


You've tried to tell him on countless occasions, but never managed to get it through to him.


You just wish he could figure it out.


.....


(I know I'm not your only, but I'll still be a fool.)


You ran into your apartment, slamming and locking the door behind you. Tears streamed down your cheeks, but you didn't even bother to wipe them, as his words echoed through your head.


"I'm thorry, [Name]." He glared at you, making your eyes well with tears. "But we can't keep doing thith. I have a matesprit, and she maketh me happy. Thorry."


....


('Cause I'm a fool for you,)


And now here you are, 6 months older, and still single.


After Sollux had left, you had been depressed for a few months, but eventually gotten over it.


You still catch yourself thinking of him sometimes, but not to often.


You smile more often now.


You were happy.


(Just a little bit of your heart, just a little bit of your heart,)


You found someone new, someone that you knew wouldn't hurt you. You knew that you were his only, and you never question your relationship with him.


But, it still didn't feel right to you.


You were happy, yes. But still, you couldn't love him the way he loved you.


He treated you so well, but you just couldn't give enough love to him, the love that he deserved.


(Just a little bit of your heart is all I want,)


So there you were, once again.


Crying over a guy.


You were so done with life.


You just want to end it all. No more pain, suffering, or anything inbetween.


(Just a little bit of your heart, just a little bit of your heart,)


You twisted the knob on your bath tub, tears falling from your face to the water that was filling it. You were so close to what you wanted, all you had to do was wait until this tub was full.


(Just a little bit is all I'm asking for.)


You regret ever letting him leave you.


You regret not telling him that you wanted him to stay, that you were the one he was supposed to be with.


You knew there was another girl, but you knew that she didn't have what you had with him.


(I know I'm not your only, but at least I'm one,)


You grabbed your razor and slid it down your wrist, hissing as you did so. You knew if you did it like this that no one would be able to stich it back together.


You wipe your tears, and dip yourself into the now full tub.

The water slowly turns from clear to pink, all in a few minutes.

(I heard a little love, is better than none.)


Well, I guess this is it. I wish he would've known.


(Just a little bit of your heart, just a little bit of your heart,)

Meanwhile, Sollux was pacing back and forth in his hive. He wasn't as happy with Feferi as he thought he'd be.

He missed [Name].

He had a lot of things on his mind, but they all revolved around the same girl.

It was amazing how much trouble she caused him.

He was pacing because he was worried about you, he knew about what you did when you were depressed.

Afterall, he used to comfort you through all the times you cut, or thought about cutting.

He was worried about you not answering the phone. He had been trying to call you for the past hour, and still got no answer.

"Thit!" He hissed, pushing the end call button on his touch screen.

He was done with this.

He was just going to go see you, and face what he's been avoiding.

He was going to [Name]'s apartment.

(Just a little bit of your heart is all I want.)

"[Name]!" He called, knocking on your bright red door.

He finally gave up on knocking, and used the key you had given him all those months ago to open the door. He stepped inside, looking around suspiciously.

You were obviously home, all the lights were on.

He looked everywhere, the kitchen, your bedroom, the spare bedroom, the living room, but still couldn't find you.

Then it hit him,

The bathroom.


(Just a little bit of your heart, just a little bit of your heart,)


He banged on the bathroom door, practically screaming your name. He had already tried the knob, but you must have locked it.

He mumbled "Fuck this," and finally decided to kick open the door, and stumble inside.

What he saw broke his blood-pumper in two.

There you laid, sprawled out in the floor, dripping with water, and blood seeping from your wounds. He let out a gasp, rubbing his eyes, attempting to wake himself from the scene before him.

But sadly, it wasn't a dream. He wasn't asleep, but in denial. You couldn't be dead. You just couldn't.

He shuffled over to your form, and dropped to his knees, pulling you into his arms. His shirt was soaked already, but he didn't care. He didn't care about anything but the girl who lay in front of him.

But that girl was gone now.

In this situation, most people would ask "Why would she do this?" But he didn't need to. He knew what he had done to her was the worst thing he could've done, and now he's paying the price for it.

He sniffled, biting his lip so hard that his mustard blood dripped from his newly punctured skin.

His eyes widened, seeing a bright yellow substance fall onto your face. He felt something wet roll on his cheek, and moved his hand to it, only to realize it was tears.

He sniffled once again, crouching over your body. He looked over your body, seeing that there was a paper that you were clutching in your left hand.

He slipped the paper from your hands, and held it to his face, holding your hand as he did.

(Just a little bit is all I'm asking for.)


'To the one I love,

This could have been prevented, had I been treated the way I should've been.

I wish you could've just realized just how much I love you.

You hurt me so much, Captor. But I see it now.

If I do this, I'll be happy.

No more drama between you and I, won't that be great?

Goodbye, Sollux. I love you. I love you so much.'

His tears dripped onto the paper, staining it slightly. "Dammit, [Name].. I love you too, fuck....I love you too!"